"Show"

its 7:35, I am getting ready to have some good girlfriends over to watch the Bachelor and drink some sparkling grape juice, but just wanted to update on more progress, I had a passing of what i consider a blood clot, and then a couple hours later I had a long jelly like string of "show" ?!?! I don't know what to call it other than that, so Lots of prayers, and fingers crossed, hopefully time with the girls we will get some good laughs and i will continue in the right direction, but for now I am so excited, still no pain, but I have had cramps and lots of belly tightening since my appointment... stay tuned :)

Call to the Midwife

so after blogging, my midwife has returned my call and I informed her of the CHANGE since I had left her office, and what she informed me of I wanted to post here. so she says that this could all be from her checking me, if there was any left over jell it could liquify and also the bloody little bit and brownish that I saw, could have been from the check... but she's hopeful, she said to keep an eye on it, if it was my water then it should continue to leak throughout the evening and because I was negative for strep b I have the 24 hrs, so to keep eye on it and if its still leaking by morning call and they will get me in to check me out.

but she said hopefully labor will begin for you, she knows nick and I are so ready!

C*H*A*N*G*E*

Today I had my apt with my midwife, I am now 4 days past due date, nick came home to pick me up and take me bc of bad road conditions, we arrive not knowing what we were in for, would this be a reg apt, would we have an ultra sound, will i have a vaginal exam? so we went with high hopes that we would be told hey, your ready to have a baby!!

midwife came in and I was checked, as you remember my sad post from last monday of being told by a male ob that well your cervix is completely closed and here is a pamphlet that will tell you when you are in labor.... so today the repost is that my midwife says my cervix feels very nice ( thank you very much) and that she can get just the tip of her fingertip into the cervix so although I am still not dilated she can feel that I am thinning out, but cant tell me how much because she would need to be inside my cervix and well she cant be with just a fingertip...


So we were not disappointed because why? well thats improvement... she also told me that her head is very low which is good, she thinks is just Jadas positioning that is holing up labor because my body aka cervix, feels ready other than the dilation part, which she assured me can happen in 0 to 60 seconds anyhow... she once had someone be completely closed and 4 hours later call back and say she wasn't feeling that great and she came back in and was 8 cent!!! crazy, so anyhow we left by scheduling the ultra sound and non stress test for monday the 11th of January at 2:30... but my midwife didn't seem to think i would be making that apt, actually when she left the room she said... maybe I will see you later :)

now I was sure she just wanted to make me happy :) but I was, on the car ride home nick and I were talking about random things, then he dropped me off and I asked him to go to the gas station to get gas in my car and washer fluid... I came in the house and hung up my jacket.....


and
I
felt
a
Little
wet


hmm I thought, now hey this is totally TMI maybe, but its my blog so if you don't like, check your self out now...

so I went to the bathroom and noticed a "fluid" spot.... was this my water, was this the start of my water?!?!? I don't know, it could be... hmmm, I wiped, and yes it looks to be water, then i wiped again, this time a little bloody show.... like pink water....


I call nick, hey honey..
maybe my water is breaking?!?!

what?1
maybe?
what do you mean?
should i come home now and not get gas?!?

noo nonon no get the gas, i am feeling totally fine, normal actually, just wanted to tell you maybe this is what is going on...

b.c who knows right, i mean i was just checked at the dr 40 mins prior, maybe this was just from that....


changed the underwear and the next thing was to eat

I ate a bowl of cottage cheese and 3 clementines... mmmm delish!

all while doing the booty shaking I was told to do by my midwife to help better position her....


called my doula to let her know, and she asked if i was still "leaking"

did a quick check

and there was a new spot in the fresh undies...

GOOD SIGN!!

then later there was more brownish pink show, that has a different consistency other than water, so was this my mucus plug? part of it? or my water? who knows... but all I know is right now I am still feeling good and wanted to get as many thoughts out on the blog as I could...


so it could be 24 hrs, 48 hrs... I don't know maybe 5 days.... maybe tonight, who knows but all I know is this is CHANGE and I / WE are excited!!!!!